This Moment

As I sit here right now with my legs crossed and a belly almost touching the keyboard tray, I can’t help but wonder and be excited for this new addition that is growing inside of me. I’m almost at the half way baking mark, and it hits me that in another 20 or so weeks my world is going to be rocked to the core. I’ll have a sweet newborn to cuddle in my arms, constant feedings and diaper changes and lets not forget about the night time parenting and the unavoidable sleep deprivation.

But as I sit here and think about what life will be like this fall, I can’t help but also mourn what I will be losing. Being a mom to one.


At 2 years and 3 months old, this little guy is my buddy. We go everywhere together and no matter if it’s a quick trip to the gas station or a walk to the park, he makes it fun. Even on our most boring of days, he is happy and excited to read the same book over and over and play the same games again and again. Life is exciting to him and the smallest of things will bring a smile to his face. If that’s an airplane flying across the sky or an ant making his way across the sidewalk each of these little moments brings BabyBird such joy.

It is in these little moments that I cherish and hope to be able to relive again when I have a new baby in my arms. These are the moments that makes my heart ache knowing that he won’t be the center of my world and have my full undivided attention. I will have to learn and adjust (and so will he) on what our ordinary days will be like.  So as the days start to get warmer and warmer and we venture out on hikes, trips to the farm and the zoo I can’t help but take a moment during our day trips to stop and wonder if this will be the last time.

Will this be the last time we take a walk to the park, just the two of us?

Will he know that this will be the last time he gets to do these things with just mommy?

Then I pause and imagine the two of them playing together, fighting over the same toys, rough housing in the living room and the inevitable tears that will follow. I picture two sets of little feet at the dinner table, and in the bathtub each night getting scrubbed clean and two sleepy kids getting tucked in each night. This fills my heart, even though I will no longer be a mom to one.


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  • Bailey

    BabyBird is going to be such a great big brother. I know you’re worrying about missing being mommy to one, but having two is going to be amazing. <3

    • Christene @ MommaBird

      Thanks :)

  • Quinn

    The most difficult part (in my opinion) is planning an outing. You have to make sure you know where the closest potty is for the 2 year old + find a place to nurse & keep the 2 year old close by. It’s also not as easy to go to multiple places in one day with 2 little ones… the loading and unloading in the car is not my favorite thing to do.

    However, having 2 is so much fun! Your little guy will undoubtedly have a smooth transition into big brotherhood.

    • Christene @ MommaBird

      So true… and I think this is the part I am dreading the most is how to manage outings and make them fun and not too stressful on my part in trying to get everyone out the door

  • beckyj @ alazycrazylife

    Beautiful post :) I totally get your fears. But your last paragraph? That by far eclipses any regret or loss (not quite the right words, but I hope you know what I mean) you might feel about not having your firstborn all to yourself anymore. Not to say there won’t be challenges, but of course it’ll be so totally worth it. And giving BabyBird a sibling is such a gift.

    • Christene @ MommaBird

      I know what you mean, I am excited for the next chapter but also mourning this one and the change. It’s hard to wrap my head around the fact that I’ll have TWO little humans to take care of

  • mandy @a sorta fairytale

    Oh my gosh, I think I wrote a post exactly like this a few months before my 2nd was born. So I know exactly what you are saying. It will be a transition for everyone at first, but you will find a groove and it will all start to feel natural. The beauty of a sibling relationship will far surpass any other negative emotion or tough transitional period.
    One piece of advise I have is to make sure that you are having mommy/son dates with your oldest, even if it’s just a walk in the park :) It will mean so much to both of you, I promise.