originally written on March 14th
It’s kind of hard to wrap my head around the fact that I’ve been pregnant for a little over 2 months now. Some reason this pregnancy is going faster and yet feels slower than last time around. I remember the first time around I would check the weekly developmental milestones each day and re-read what was growing and developing inside of me compared to this time around I check it each week on my flip day (the day of the week that marks the start of the next week of gestation).
Morning sickness comes and goes now and lucky I have not felt as horrible as I did a few weeks ago. I’ve been listening to my body more and eating more regularly and snacking in-between meals so I think that has helped a lot on keeping the sickness at bay. You should see my nightstand, it’s stocked with all sorts of snacks. And I’ve been drinking water like it’s my job. Which also leads me to pee every 45 minutes or so. Should I even complain about going to the bathroom? I probably shouldn’t because I know it’s only going to get worse from here.
Now for sleep, that has been a rough issue lately. I can settle down and fall asleep okay on most nights, but I just can’t seem to stay asleep through the whole night. I wake up to a drop of a pin and then it takes me forever to fall back asleep. So I’m sleeping in 2-3 hour stretches at night and so far I’ve felt okay in the mornings. I guess it’s just mother’s nature’s way of preparing me for a newborn?
Physically, I’ve started to show a little bit and my stomach has popped out. I’m using the good old hair tie trick with my jeans to keep them on and so far that’s been working for me. I have a few of those belly bands, but they tend to slide around and get too tight by the end of the day. I bought one pair of stretchy pants from GAP and oh my, I forgot how comfy maternity pants were so that’s one plus to being preggers.
BabyBird has been doing great. At every stage I always feel a bit sad that he is growing up so quickly and that I am missing the baby stage, but I do have to say that at every stage, I love it more and more. He is at the point where we can communicate and plan out our day and what activities we want to do. It’s a lot of fun having a little buddy that’s with me all day. He’s grown a lot more independent and will play by himself for a good 15-20 minutes before he wanders around to find me and see what I am up to.
One struggle lately has been drop off at his montessori school (he only goes 2 days a week) in the morning. He clings to my leg (can you say heartbreaking?) and doesn’t want me to leave. I literally have to pry his little hands off of me, wave and give him a kiss goodbye and walk out of the room. His teachers say that he calms down within a few minutes and is fine the rest of the day, but will ask where I went and when I will be back to pick him up. Just rip my heart out kid. I hope this is just a stage and he’ll grow out of it soon. Absolutely breaks my heart at drop off each morning.
Tomorrow is my first midwife appointment so I’m excited to hear this little one’s heartbeat and get checked out. Feels weird to not have gone in for an earlier appointment this time around to get “doctor certified” that I an indeed pregnant.